Tuesday, December 11, 2007Chapter 53----- exploring the Gifts we have
To my relief, Bratprince’s fatigue was gone in three days and he was incredibly active again! Making and co producing another play, recreating unfinished Mozarts, more painting projects excited him. I still talked with Quinn and here’s some updates ...
Elfin: yoyo! I miss ya!
Noble Prince: hihi. (smiliey face) sorree. 4got to msg.
Elfin: no prob. My maths is better I got a b. but sadly speech sux.
Noble Prince: cool. What speech?
Elfin: formal one, I got c. practiced much, but I still scared. Voice flat n soft…. Teacher so strict on me!
Noble Prince: hmm. Can’t u use mike?
Elfin: can’t. supp to proj it.
Noble Prince: aww. I’m also nervous with audience.
( I thought a bit and then------) is mona with u?
Noble Prince: yea, she’s talking to uncle. U know what, she can’t wait4 our year anniversary! It’s on sat. =)))
I laughed aloud and replied that it sounded real nice. They are so romantic and tight.
I felt a presence. It was Louis, who stared at me quizzically. “Are you ok?”
“Why did you come so sneakily?”
He apologized, resting a hand on my shoulder. “Why did you laugh?”
“Q is so cute saying this.” I pointed.
Louis’ lips became tugged up. “Oooh. Do you know when is Our anniversary?”
“Nope neva heard of it.”
My companion revealed merrily, “It’s today! I wanted to go out with Stat but he’s got an appointment.” Oh yea, Louis was more fashionable today, in shiny green garb. It was cut off at the upper arms and separate sleeves coming out till his elbows. I marveled at the transformation.
“Tell him! Show him you love him! I said that and he hugged me hard,” I remembered Lestat doing that. Then tickled me on the stomach and made his eyes blink as large as a deer’s. He was in such an elevated mood today.
“All right. Call if you want to meet later.” Louis went off.
Elfin: was chatting. Hows ur vamp skills? Is it hard to control urself?
Noble Prince: I got fire, the cloud gift, telepathy… the last one hard. Sometimes so much interference. Say u also rite?
Elfin: I am! U rem. Haha, I can lucid dream n make a shield.
Quinn said he was so impressed. Being half witch meant that shielding his mind was extremely challenging. His girl used that liberally and had been coaching him. But ‘still can’t or I get a migraine’. And Mona gave him a hard time since they didn’t have a wall between them. he added ------ My powers r so unpredict. I’m exhausted by the time session finishes.
Elfin: tat hard? Aww. I’m sure u will b able to, Q. practice can.
Noble Prince: yea, trying, stuck at that level4. others doing better than me.
Is it like u pic a wall?
Elfin: yes but u also gotta consciously Force it against wat pple tell u. dun let them in. then make a filter4 only some to come in. I’ve been learning as a child. Easier4 me.
Noble Prince: tats helpful. Thx. So how r u and Boss? Is he nagging u?
Elfin: he’s up and down! Preters mood, lols. Recently acting in new play, invite u to come. He was excellent in the two so far! Not lost the touch. I wish I cld be like him.
Noble Prince: yup. When is it? I will cm if I can make it…
Elfin: not sure when exactly. What’s the Fire gift like?
The icon said Noble Prince was writing me a message. Then it appeared:
Very hot and burning inside. If not careful can be engulfed n can’t be put out. Very scary n inhuman. Hate2 use it… when M. or Lestat unleash, I feel sickened. Dun any of u control fire?
Hmm, I thought it would be an asset. At a snap of his fingers, the blond guy could make one appear. I loved it, watching the red tongues dancing like little elves. Some of my friends did but for them, it wasn’t a problem.
Things can be heating up but they can light campfires. Need the discipline of control.
Noble Prince: Ya.
Another msn conversation discussed his hobby of playing games. Same with me!
Elfin: really? I love that game! Did u play a lot when u were young?
Noblep: hmm, no comp when young. Then msdos one at teen. Very poor. Haha.
Elfin: lol lol! Now got time to game?
Noblep: when get break while studying. Haha, play more now while u can. Next time… ok wun scare ya. Nice being frenz. U r so nice.
I felt my heart squeeze. I wrote: thx a lot, Quinn. I wish I got a lot of frenz tho. D other nite both Ls had their anniversary. Lo asked me2 join but din wanna crash.
Noblep: wow! Lo still remembers v totful of him. Stat can’t. did they tell u how it was?
Indeed I was regaled by every detail, sans the kisses and long bites. Actually Louis was beginning to hear Lestat in his mind, soft snatches. But they had exchanged once more, so the connection was lost again. Stat looked tearful when he revealed that he took too much.
“I wanted to stop myself! (his bf patting his back) but I just felt drunk. Can’t undo it!”
I took out some tissues. He accepted. When Stat got himself back in control, I told him that his cheques had come, payment from his acting. He became instant rhapsody and announced that “I’ll be sure to buy you all gifts! And there’ll be many to go round!”
I felt the urge to fly off more and more. Snatches and wisps of coldness, visions of mountains and valleys. The wild urge to beckon to them and unleash the whole of my soul!
Unlike previously, I kept my guardians and family updated. Mom was quite worried. At my age she hadn’t wanted to run off. And Stat tried to understand, but he always became depressed. He’d frequently plead to come along. One night, like in a dream, the already wraith figure sat by his balcony, trimming a basket of flowers. I was puzzled as to who was there when I looked up from downstairs. I bid au revoir to my friends and waved.
He stood up, placing the basket on his bench. Dehydrated and like a husk of his former self. It was horrifying! I thought Bratprince had made a recovery, he seemed to be suffering again, like the time he became critically ill. Go and lie down! ---- I urged, flying up.
He coughed a little and shook his head. Cherie, I’m fine. I had nightmare about u suddenly dying inside a small space…. It’s dangerous. Don’t go away. I need to scan u.
He picked up the basket and tottered unstably into his room. Motioned for me to land near him. I’ll touch up, sorry to scare u.
Powdered down, he still looked like a wraith, yet better. the spark was not in his eyes though, nor the voice that’d lost timbre.
Hey it’s alright. I will be contactable. It’s just bad dreams, I did fine so far. It is my nature to go off for a meditation. Our evolution works like that. dun be sad. Um, lie down.
The vampire held me gently in his arms. I heard his loud heartbeat, usually slow but today it was quicker. He took deep breaths. I Sent calming images. Lestat spoke in a broken tone, “It’s coming true. Just like the others, you’re going to grow up. Except that you’ll mature… I know, I always tell myself that you are mortal and I shall let you be.”
He placed me on the bed and turned to the windows. They folded shut and the wind stopped. His back to me, my sensei sounded unstable and crying, but told me not to look.
“It’s true. I’ll become bigger. What happened?” I answered.
I didn’t get any answers that night. The blond prince wasn’t himself, I think he had more nightmares than the one he just described. Sometimes vampires can feel a huge impact for a long time. It was disturbing to me. I also loathed this worrying, why couldn’t he stop acting like a boy? He ought to bounce back and cheer us up! Where was his positive spirit?
“I am afraid of the pain of separation. That’s the whole truth. I – I can’t control myself. Bianca, I hope you won’t leave yet. I’m not ready yet,” he said, walking towards the windows again, wiping his face.
Okay. Come and lie down. You haven’t eaten?
He lay down, smiling. I ruffled my feathers, smoothed down by his hands stroking me.
His deep sadness and resting hope on me emerged again. How would he cope? My mind was churning.
At last, he replied, I will later. Must have been drained from Louis taking. I forget myself. Anyway, better now. I’ll have your bro for company if you leave…. Bianca, can I call you everyday?
I didn’t like the sound of that. His blue eyes filled with kinship and warmth. How could I put this nicely? Whenever you want to. But if I don’t answer, doesn’t mean I’m in danger. Staying with friends there.
Change back… I got something for you. Stat sat up and opened his cupboard. I opened my body up. Fingers, toes and hair.
Wow! It was a really cool pair of winter gloves, dark red. Then I realized that I had forgotten his birthday. “Oh no… I’m sorry.”
“ Do you like them? Try them on.” Stat bounced on his mattress eagerly. They were just right. He said it was alright that I forgot his birthday. It reminded me acutely that he was getting older. Only, I couldn’t check that because his hair was not white.
Shortly after I made sure he had fed more, I flew off to the islands. I had my cellphone.
Not calls everyday but once two days. Lestat kept asking if I had eaten enough. “Yes! Lots of meat here.” I ate fish and mostly fruits, of course couldn’t tell them that.
“I’m glad. Your little bro also misses you. Come back soon.” I sensed that he wanted to add in more things, that he wanted me back and he wanted to hold me tight. They were unmentioned.
“When I am ready. Don’t try to force your telepathy, it won’t reach me. Louis?”
He promised verbally that he wouldn’t force himself. So I added fiercely, “Don’t ok. I don’t want you in a coma for 20 years or more.”
Sad laugh, then more cheered. “Sure sure! Louis’out. Check your email. We’ll flood you, cherie. Hmm, I’m going out mostly, if not I’m making new songs up. Will be going with Marius and the rest to find young fledges and stop them getting hunted. Wish me luck.”
If only I could be there personally! No, I could not. I woodenly said good luck, feeling very cut up and yet I was supposed to be a warrior. No feelings was impossible.
Sometimes the messages got through, late but they eventually reached me.
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